Sunday, May 9, 2010

.I.Didn't.Even.Change.Who.I.Was.For.You.


Usually...when one enters any sort of relationship...there are flaws even if we choose to look past them. We try to change our ways to mold around this new person. When I met him..I knew there were flaws but I didn't change and he didn't seem to mind. We just had fun together, I thought of nothing else but him when we were together and that alone was a little but of heaven...just being able to escape the everyday brainstorms. So this boy..he became an escape and I loved every second of it. Everything from the way he smelt to his embrace drew me in like a moth to a flame. He seemed interested in me and he sure knew how to keep me interested. So why is it now that we haven't talked in a little over a week and I'm in need of my escape. It's like I need my fix. It's ridiculous how different our feelings are towards each other. I'm not in love...I may like him but mostly I like how I could be myself around him and his friends and I just fit. They had their own quirks and what I like to call "weirdism's" Even if nothing was to become of us relationship wise I would love to be friends with him just to be around him and his lax attitude. It's almost freeing

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

.Not.So.Bad.Boy.




















There's a boy. I don't think he's as bad ass as he wants everyone to think. He makes me smile alot...just by texting me something silly like ":p" I smile and laugh about it for an hour. He calls me baby and gorgeous and who wouldn't love that? I'm absolutely terrified that I'll end up liking him more than he likes me and getting my heart broken yet again. I really just started to give up and then...he came around. It's too soon to know how I truly feel about him but the butterflies are telling me that the feeling's there and it's not really going anywhere. I just really hope I don't screw this up..

Saturday, April 24, 2010

.Vino.e`.Formaggio.



Vino with my lovely. Tonight might get sloppy but as long as I'm with the best of people that doesn't matter :) hope everyone has a fabulous weekend <3

Monday, April 19, 2010

.Hmmm?.


I'm in the mood to do something crazy and reckless...I just wanna go do something on a whim and leave no room for regrets. Any crazy ideas?

Sunday, April 18, 2010

.Latest.Desires.












These are a few items that have caught my eye and are definitely the next few charges to my credit card <3

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

.Fed.Up.




















When does it get easier. Honestly whoever told me that things really do get better I personally want to find you and punch you in the face for giving me that false hope. I'm sick of waiting. I'm sick of not sleeping because all I can think about is "maybe it'll be better tomorrow." So I'm going to stop. I'm going to stop looking forward to tomorrow. I know it's not going to get better. In fact everything will probably follow the trend that has been going on lately. Everything is only getting worse. I find myself thinking... is it even worth it?