Friday, March 12, 2010
Basically, My life has consisted of failures and just letting everyone I love down. When does this stop? When does life get better? I've been told it never does. Why would someone want to live in this sort of pain and disappointment forever? I spend days upon days just in tears because of the realization that my life has been a waste. I've begun to realize that life is known to be a sacred and wanted thing. People fear death more than anything..most people want to live forever. I'm not one of those people. I'm not saying I want to die but I won't fear it. I'll welcome it when the time comes and know that the pain, suffering and disappointment is finally over. I just want to be free of my thoughts for a day. What a relief that would be.